SEPTEMBER!!

September is the month!!! Yes I said September. We have both agreed to go to this program that offers IVF in the Czech Republic. It is a good and licensed clinic. It's about half the cost of IVF here. This means if it does not work we will be able to try again that much sooner. Of course we hope we wont need to plan that.

I am very excited about this. I have a feeling this will work, this will bring me the child(ren) we have been longing for. Bill wants a vacation and I want a baby. It's perfect. Here is the website of you want to check it out. http://www.myivfalternative.com/ivf-program

I'm not sure the date we will be going but I should have all the money by June so plenty of time before we need it. Bill and I have an appointment Fri May 1st to have the many tests we need ordered. This will start out journey for real. I can barley believe its happening finally.

Things are really doing well for us. Bill got promoted at work last month although he has yet to find out how much of a raise he will get. I am not working anymore. Got laid off, Ok fired lol oh well I'll always have unemployment lol. ok not always but for a while anyway.

other wise not much going on right now. Ill try and keep this thing more up to date now that things are moving. still moving slowly but they are moving. I will also start making vlogs when things start happening. Have a good day people out there.

Still hanging in there

Hi every one, lol Ok I know no one reads this but it's nice to pretend.
So anyway nothing has really changed since I last wrote, but i figured its been over a month I better check in so I can remind my self that we are moving forward. Only 119 days until we start IVF. I know that is a very long time but when I first started writing it was over 8 months away.

I have been filling my time with reading Cafemom.com posts and reading other people blogs relating to IVF. They give me so much inspiration to know that this process even though its hard as hell to go through, both physically and mentally it works.

I know in my heart that its going to work. I can feel it i just have to get through the next 119 days. Talk about a 2WW lol.

In the mean time I have starting to really work on crafting. I enrolled to sell Stampin up stuff. Not so much to sell it but so I could get a discount buying the stuff myself. I have already spend over 200.00 buying stuff. I have these wonderful little stamps I will be able to use for the baby shower when that finally comes. I will also make all the Christmas cards this year. I'm excited about that.

Some thing that im excited about coming up is the Largest Christmas Bazaar here in Portland that will start the weekend of Thanksgiving. I love that place and usually buy half my Christmas presents for people there. They also have a lady there that sells the best embossing powers there. I stock up every year.

On the baby mission: We have paid off one of the 2 credit cards I talked about in other posts, so just one more left. I have it figured out that it should be gone the 1st or 2nd week in December. So as you can see things although slowly are moving.

Working out you ask well I'm still doing it. I had a set back but we are back on track and doing well. I'll Write more some time soon. I hope every one (if there is any one out there) is doing great and I wish any and every one trying to get their BFP gets them.

Work Out for that baby!

I would like to start out with OUCH! Bill and I have been working out but today was our first session with a trainer. I did my treadmill like normal then we went to our apt. Rusty was all like you ready and we where all YEA let do this. By the time we where done we where all Rusty you A** H***. lol
So we did these stretches, that wasn't so bad for me, but Bill had a hard time with it. I did have a harder time with one of the stretches that you have to balance, so I guess I need to work on that.
Then we did weights, that was interesting. We only did 6 different machines. I had been doing more on my own but I learned why we needed to do these, and not the ones I had been using.
We learned how much weight to lift and the setting we need for the different machines.

Then after we had our ass' kicked we had to go and do more treadmill. Rusty wanted us to do 20 mins but said that if we start feeling sick then just do what we could. We did like 5 mins before I feel like I was getting a migraine and I was about to hurl.

Both of agreed that we have never sweated so much on our own so we must be working out harder. We where going to work out 5-6 times a week but Rusty said that 4 times is best because the body does need a rest. We all agreed on every other day.

The nutrition is the hardest for me. After they had taken my measurements and body fats, He said that I need to eat like 2600 calories. No thank you. With my lap band I couldn't eat that if i wanted to. So we'll see how this goes.

That's about it. Oh I did get that collections job. It's ok nothing to wright home about. It will do for now. I think with it I should be bring home about 1500 a month. I have decided to save half and through half on to bills and get those paid off faster. Once those are gone, I get all Bill's left over money for the baby fund. His extra money is between 800-1000, so once I can add that everything will come together fast. March here we come!!!

Not much going on

Well like the title says there is not much going on with me. I was very sick the last few days, stuffy nose, and a very sore throat. I'm alot better now though. I should of went to the Dr. I have a wonderful Dr that I know would of given me just the right thing. To bad for me Bill's new insurance didn't start until Sept 1 and we still haven't gotten our cards yet. Oh well I'm feeling much better today.

Last time I wrote that I got a new job. well it was a Temp Job and its almost over. They are going to restart it but I'm going to try and find something that pays more. I mean I have tons of customer service experience. I am a hard worker, I'm smart and usually figure out what im doing before anyone else does. For example this job im at now. They are so slow they only kept 3 people and I am one of them. But due to them being so slow they are only giving me about 2-3 hrs a day of work.

Well I got a call yesterday to go do collections. God I hate collections. Im good at it just like everything else I do but I still dont like it. I took their tests and they said I did very well. This surprised me though lol. they had fractions. I dont even remember how to do those. its been like 15 years since I had to do them. I dont know what fractions had to do with collecting credit card debt but what ever.
So I go in Friday for their interview. I figure if I get it great thats more baby money. If not thats ok the other job im doing is going to have more hrs starting next week anyway.

On the weight loss side I havent checked since last time I posted about it but i think i have lost some more. I have been too sick to go work out for the last week. As soon as I can breath with out it wheezing or coughing I will get back to it.
In the mean time im still trying to eat 5-6 times a day like I was told. I tried on a pair of jeans that were really tight a month ago and they fit really good now.... to band the zipper is broken. My old jeans are very lose and im always pulling them up. My friends say thats great but its very annoying too lol

On the money side. Well I got paid 600 something and we had to repair the struts on the car that was 657.00 plus we got a flat tire, and we do not have a spar so I called less swab and they said its after hours and I would have to buy a brand new tire and rim. I didnt have a choice we only have one car. The total for that was almost 300.00 then I went to get the old tire fixed and wanted the new tire put on my rim that matches the others, I thought that would be cheap. it was 60.00. So it was safe to say that I didnt get to put any of my check away this time. My next one I should be able to keep baring anything else happening. But it will be small due to missing a few days from being sick and cut hrs. Oh well money is money even small money right? lol

Well thats it for now. I hope every one is having a good week. Congrats to all the Cafemom ladies that got their BFP's and Baby Dust to all those trying this month.

Alittle update

Hello my reader's.
I thought I would update you. There is not to much to say really. lets see I have started a weight loss ticker so you can see how I'm doing. My friend Brandon went to school for health and training, to be a coach. anyway he is helping me with the proper diet. He said that I do already eat pretty good but their was a few tweaks like change eating that to the morning and things like that.
He also told me what to do in my work out. I was just doing stuff to do it now i have more of a plan. Like he said to do the weights first then do my walking. I was doing it the other way around.
He also makes me eat like 5-6 times a day. this was not as easy as i thought since i have my lap band. I have found out the hard way that i can no longer eat things that i loved. Like bread!!!!!!
more then 2 bites not matter how well i chew it sends me to the bathroom. and Carrots. i loved carrots and dip :(

well all for the better anyway. Good news is i get to eat more fruits, which i love. So my goal is to lose another 30 lbs by the time I'm ready to do the IVF. now 30 is a low goal. Brandon thinks as long as i stick to his plan i should lose that in like 5ish months. so maybe ill lose like 50 which is even better. I'm trying really hard to do this. For me its hard my eating and working out.
You see i still get migraines when i workout and eating is hard for the above reasons.
but I'm committed, I haven't even had any Ice cream or peanut butter M&M's and if you know me you know they are my weakness.

I have also started my prescribed prenatal vitamins. good thing they say to take them at night they make me have a lot of nausea, but again all worth it. besides when I'm finally pregnant i will have a lot of that anyway may as well get use to it.

So on the work front. I am to get paid next Friday whats the good news. the bad news is my car needs some work so i wont get my check like i thought i would. but that's ok because i cant go with out my car!!! The 6am shift is growing on me. I like getting off at 230pm. i go work out after work and then go pick up Bill so it works out perfectly. only problem is i will only be working there like 1-2 more weeks :( its a temp job. oh well, make the best of it while i can right? :)

ok I think that's it for now. this was longer then i thought it would be, wow do i know how to ramble or what? LOL
Anyways i want to end this thanking my support team, Jennifer and Mom. oh and of course my wonderful loving husband Bill. With out you i don't know if i could do this, your faith in me gives me faith in me. I love you all!!!

I hope this will be me some day

Bad Days and Wonderful Husbands

So last night I had a bad day. I have been reading alot about IVF and have joined a on line support group called cafemom. Its a really a good thing, but i read about all the couples that did their IVF like right away. I was feeling sorry for myself for having to wait so long.
I want a baby so bad all i can think about all day is when am I going to be a mommy and give my wonderful husband the baby he deserves?

So anyway i read this book last night called Pregnancy wishes and IVF dreams, this got me thinking. This lady had a different problem then me. She had a problem on the males side. it wasn't anything he could do about it he was born with a issue of his sperm tube (i don't know what you call it) connecting to where it could be released.

So anyway the only way for him to be able to fertilize an egg is to have it injected into the egg. The only way for that to happen is IVF. So anyway they did IVF and it worked in the first time, with twins too. this gives me high hopes that it will work for me the first time too. if not i will have to wait another year before we will be able to try again, this depresses me because i will have to again wait a long time. Im so stressed that it will not work or worse yet that i will get pregnant and lost the baby for some reason or another. God please don't let that happen. I don't think i will be able to mentally handle that.

I called the Doctors today to find out more on pricing so i know what and when things will come up. it looks like this.
Medication 2500-3000
Mock Transfer 155.00
Dopler ultrasound 368.00
Sperm function test 105.00
Class 1 30.00
Class 2 55.000
Apt to hear the risks of IVF 168.00
To freeze any good unused eggs 850.00 plus 315.00 a year storage.
Then I have to pay a deposit of 7175.00
total 12,221.00

And that doesn't cover actually having a baby or any appts after I'm actually pregnant. As you can guess im pretty stressed out about the whole thing.

So anyway i thought the agreement that Bill and I had about this was we where gonna wait until June. which is almost a year out. this also freaked me out because i know this is a very time sensitive thing here. the older i get the harder its going to be. all the books and websites say this.
and as we all know if its on the Internet it must be true right? lol

I thank god all the time that I have a husband that know how to calm me down. He came home and could tell right away that i was not having a good day. he said what have you been reading? i showed him and he said that he thinks i like to torture myself. I told him that alot of the times reading all this IVF stuff gives me hope. but some day like that day make me sad.

so he cuddled me up and said whats the problem? I told him that I didn't want to wait but i know we have to and that it was tearing me up. He reminded me of all the reasons why we are waiting. All good ones because as you can see from the list above its alot of money. He reminded me that no matter how much we save up we are trying by my birthday next year. I told him that is soooooo long away. almost a year since my birthday is in the end of June and its the begging of Aug.

I also told him and my stresses. So here is what we agreed on. We will try by march so that i will be pregnant by my birthday next year. I will work and every penny that i make will go to IVF. The hope is that i have collected 7000.00 or more. but he assured me that we will try then even if i only have 3000 or what ever, and we are going to finance the rest. I told him i was also worrying about that because we don't have good credit anymore. what if we cant get it financed.
he said that we would have to cross that bridge when we came to it.

I can see the light now. 8 months away to start my treatment. 8 is alot but its alot better then 12 :)

I'm going to keep reading the information and book i have. I told him i will probably still have some bad days but that right then he made me feel like we are moving on this and that i can make it.
I will work and take what ever i can get to start saving for our baby. I got a job today matter a fact. its only a temp job but hay its 1000.00 or what ever for our baby fund :)
I will also focus on working out and losing more weight as i know this will also help me and the IVF treatments. 8 months lets see how much i can lose.....